Christmas was wonderful I got more than I could ever deserve or should ever receive. Winter break has been quite mellow and fun, but now the new year is coming. I try to think back, but it's something that seems as meaningless as time itself. Yet time seems to have some meaning, for I always never seem to have enough of it. The days go by so fast. The years seem like only days, the months only hours, the days only seconds. Why does life keep moving on, dragging us behind, can't we keep up with life's pace? The answer...no, we can't, but we wish so much that we could. I miss my childhood, I miss not having worries or stress over graduating, I miss many things. I don't seem to be able to do anything right, if there is such a thing. I feel as if I'm frozen in time and time just goes by, mocking at me. There is so much time I want back, so many things I want to do, and so many things I want to accomplish, but this time never seems to come and when it does, it comes too little. Yet, there, the new year still comes, even though I know if I promise I will complete this, do that, it never turns out the way I wish, so many things left behind, so many things left out, so many dreams lost. But maybe, just maybe, these dreams and accomplishments will come, at least that's what I always tell myself and sometimes, it feels like they do, but often, many of the wishes, dreams, and accomplishments I want, don't, and are left behind by the ever-moving earth and it's partner in crime, the ever-revolving clock, the dial that always turns, time. So life continues on and forces us to keep moving through it, struggling and forcing to get our way and dreams, which never seem to come as we wish no matter how much we fight for it, everything else we do, is put as meaningless or unimportant, but there is importance and there is reason, purpose, because it is part of life and what keeps us living in a world that shows no mercy to those falling behind in the times of life.
Mmm...not sure what to say to you all about what I've just typed. I guess it's just something I feel at the moment, I sometimes get like this, because of my own weaknesses and faults and I guess that the fact that I and many others have to endure such a harsh world, makes me speak my mind, however you want to put it, this is just a way I see the world, but it's not the only way. I know many see things in different aspects, and so do I, and to me, that's a wonderful thing, but also a curse of many levels, for mankind also seeks understanding and longs for one to know just who they are and everything they are and to know and love that person and nothing else. Such a impossible thing is still dreamt by many, and maybe I'm one of those people too, but, what can we do about such a long, not much, at least that's what I believe...
We can have friends, family, pets, clothes, toys, materialistic things, but we never seem to be satisfied by these things, we are never truly happy or feel entirely content, for we still want someone or maybe something, to understand just who we are and nothing else.
So what are we supposed to do, just keep living for what we wish and believe?
What does that accomplish?
Is there ever something truly worthy enough to satisfy one from life?
I have my own answer to that, but others have their own answers too, so I will not put my say or view upon this, I'll just have this of question of mine here, for all and to all who are concerned or dwell upon things similar to what I have put down upon this post...
Comments would be wonderful but I do not want a comment for the sake of commenting.
Mmmm, but do what you wish, there is nothing stopping any of you from doing so, so yes, I wish you a Happy New Year and that your wishes and dreams may come true one day, as I wish mine will too...
~Mei-Chan
[[What is our purpose?]]
((Here Is The Silent Hill Crew To Relieve My Stress))
P.S. Fuji-san, Ashurii-chan, I think this makes up for my lack of posting...
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